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   never learned how to love (but i still try) by luxcurious

   Fandom Call of Duty (Video Games)

   • Mature, Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
   • M/M, Gen
   • Series in Progress

   08 Apr 2026

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Rape/Non-Con
   • John "Soap" MacTavish/Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • John "Soap" MacTavish & Original Female Character(s)
   • John "Soap" MacTavish/Original Male Character(s)
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Original Male Character(s)
   • Original Female Character(s)
   • Angst
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley is Bad At Feelings
   • Possessive Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • Not Actually Unrequited Love
   • Hurt John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Emotionally Hurt John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Unreliable Narrator
   • POV Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Non-Graphic Smut
   • Jealousy
   • Mildly Dubious Consent
   • Unhealthy Relationships
   • Complicated Relationships
   • Hurt Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • Emotional Hurt
   • Unresolved Romantic Tension
   • Ambiguous/Open Ending
   • Character Study
   • Heavy Angst
   • Mean Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • POV John "Soap" MacTavish
   • POV Third Person
   • Angry John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Additional Warnings in Author's Note
   • Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms
   • Sad Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Flashbacks
   • Rape Aftermath
   • Past Rape/Non-con
   • Rough Oral Sex
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley Loves John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Trauma
   • Self-Hatred
   • Self-Destruction
   • Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con
   • Dissociation
   • Pining
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • John "Soap" MacTavish Needs A Hug
   • John "Soap" MacTavish Needs Help

   Summary

   How do you show someone you love them when all you know how to do is hurt?

   You let them go. Even if it kills you.

   Words:

   13,640

   Works:

   4

   Bookmarks:

   21

   Bookmarked by noctulus_noctula

   18 Feb 2026