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So we're slaves to any semblance of touch (lord we should quit but we love it too much) by Control_F
Fandoms: Merlin (TV)
19 Jan 2024
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Merlin couldn’t remember the last time he’d hugged or been hugged by someone. He had grown to love Camelot, its landscapes and its people. Camelot had sunken into his bones and had started feeling like home. He had Gaius, he had Gwen, and, sometimes, even Arthur. Yet the loneliness never truly left him.
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Arthur’s father was not a very tactile person, and could not be called affectionate in any breadth or sense of the word when it came to physical touch. While he shared and experienced camaraderie with his knights, it was limited to pats on the shoulder and thumps on the back.
What he had with Merlin… it was different, and he was slightly unsettled by how much he needed it.
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In which Merlin and Arthur suffer seasonal bouts of loneliness, and the combined friction of their pain leads to Merlin confessing his magic to Arthur. (Not without serious emotional subtext, a massage representing the last vestige of Merlin's heterosexuality and a little display of magic).
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“So. How can I help you? Oh, don’t look so stricken; I’m not going to to tell anybody about your sordid little sex games, not that I think anybody cares. Anyway, who'd believe me? For that matter, do you really think my customers would continue to patronise my establishment if I was gabbing about them? Use your brain, Potter; I do know you have one.”
“That’s the nicest thing you’ve ever said to me, I think,” Harry said.
Malfoy crossed his arms. “It’s been six years; I’m out of practice. Now tell me what you need.”
Harry stood there for a moment. He hadn’t really thought this through before he knew that it would be Draco Malfoy he was talking to. He felt utterly unprepared for the conversation.
Fortunately, or perhaps unfortunately, his ex-girlfriend was there.
“Harry wants a prostate orgasm and his boyfriends are all terrible,” Ginny said.
Draco’s eyebrows shot up. Harry’s face got hot. Ginny made a face at him and said, “Look, it was going to take you forever to say that.” Then she turned and walked away, leaving Harry alone, with Draco Malfoy, who knew that he wanted to have a prostate orgasm.
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23 Jun 2026
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Malfoy glared at Harry. “Describe this room that we are not allowed to leave.”
“Kitchen, special quarantine Floo, toilet, door that doesn’t open, windows that show us nothing, telly, cupboard, bedside table, bed…” Harry looked down at the bed, then at Malfoy in horror.
Malfoy nodded. “Ah yes, there we are. Bed. Singular. Not beds. Bed.”
“Oh, absolutely not.”
“Look at that: two years of partnership and we’ve agreed on something.”
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22 Jun 2026
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River Cartwright doesn't like sex, and he doesn't like dating. Somehow, an ill-fated conversation with Spider, the first close friend he makes as an adult, where he tries to explain this results in River finding himself in a friends-with-benefits arrangement that he doesn't remember agreeing to, doesn't want, and can't find a way out of.
It's not like it's... it's not like it isn't his fault. That's what River tells himself. He lets it happen, after all, so who else can be to blame? He doesn't get to be traumatized by this. It's not like he was raped. Later on, when people start finding out, they have a different opinion. To them, it's clear that this is in fact exactly what happened.
OR: Five times someone learned about what Spider did to River, and one person who already knew. Ft. repulsed aroace River, a heap of internalized victim blaming and aphobia, and the pain of not having the words to describe who you are and what's happened to you.
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14 Jun 2026
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Harry has refused to date since an exposé that revealed his scars and his nightmares. Severus tells Harry that he cannot possibly be uglier than Severus himself. Harry finds himself involved in a strange contest with Severus, trying to decide who is less worthy of dating.
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- Part 2 of From Samhain to the Solstice
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10 Jun 2026
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Harry discovers a secret in his Potions text and a friend in the Half-Blood Prince.
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10 May 2026